the chrysalis...

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This, I see the purpose of life as not what we become, but the difference we choose to make to the world around us. An un-becoming of what we thought or who we were of sorts.

How I see this is the life path we travel, our strengths we build upon, our lessons we learn, our trials, our hurts, loves and joys all create this version of us that we can choose in any moment how we are to be in the world. It’s like this invisible force throughout our life determining whether we come out the other side or are to be swallowed by the totality of our lived experiences.

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Whether we are in communion with this force, or we allow it to direct us… is our choice. To become from our past, or to choose to leave it behind and un-become and not to be defined by our past. This force within each of us is there, whether we see it, feel it, master it. Or, we choose to ignore it and succumb to becoming mastered by the total of our experiences.

I sat in meditation today and what was shown to me were the beautiful, raw and emotional conversations and interactions I have had over the past weeks. All of these reflections being shown to me of how I show up in the world.

Noey, my love, you in particular sat there with me on weekend overlooking our little spot by the beach and showed me who I was. Took the time to sit with me as you reflected back to me some of the impact I have made to you and others. I know I was tired and super emotional in this moment with you, and yet you showed such grace to simply be with me as you shared what I do, and what I have done. To be seen, and shown who I am, humbled me in ways I fail to express with these simple words.

I saw myself through your eyes.

There were other moments, though one in particular, so small, so insignificant… but it opened something for me.

I was walking with my daughter Arwen along the esplanade and she stopped me as a caterpillar was crossing our path. The people behind us also stopped to allow the caterpillar to pass. A few seconds of time. A nothing moment. But here, I saw what it takes for this little caterpillar to survive long enough to even become the chrysalis. We can turn our focus on our own healing or path of transformation and yet dismiss so easily the challenges faced to even come to this point of change.

I see now that self reflection is a privilege that many do not have access to or the liberty to create the space for.

This little caterpillar had survived crossing a busy path, survived not being eaten or squished simply for the chance of transformation. Every effort and challenge faced to be granted the safety to transform. If I look to my own well worn and now public journey, then I can see how every experience, every challenge, every step I have taken has built the fortitude within me for the transformation that was to come. To survive and make it to the cocoon stage is a triumph.

My own cocoon stage I know was the process of writing free… and out the other side I can now see how the transformation that occurred and was required, to come out of my self imposed gooey cocoon stage and the safety of my little container. Just as the butterfly, I struggled to leave it.

To leave the safety of the cocoon takes supreme effort from the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis and without this struggle, the butterfly does not build the strength to fly. Each step of the process without outside interference creates the strength within for what lays ahead. To assist the butterfly in its process may seem like it creates an easier path - though without that struggle the butterfly shall not have built up its own inner strength and can perish and die.

It is a lonely journey to keep going, to keep struggling.

Then, finally, the emergence and the witnessing of the emergence create this moment of exquisite wonder and beauty. The emergence being the moment of freedom. The metamorphosis of life. And as the butterfly takes flight, changes its habits, creates new ways of seeing the world, rather from the dark underbrush and ground level focused view, it is now soaring, flying high. A completely new perspective on what it means to be alive. A new view, a new vantage point, a new way of moving through the world. The magic of the butterfly stops us in our tracks. We notice its beauty, its vibrancy. Whether we are aware of the journey it has taken to be in this form, or simply witnessing it as it is now, it is a miracle of magic.

And yet, the butterfly is never to see its own magic.

It is never to see the beauty in its own wings, in its flight, in its light, its energy. It never sees how we are stopped in our tracks witnessing its magic. As the butterfly becomes accustomed to its new way of seeing the world, here we are, completely captivated by it.

This past week, I have experienced the mirror being held to my inner butterfly, for me to see my magic. And perhaps for the first time in my life, my eyes were open to see it. To see my own beautiful wings, to see the energy I hold. To see how I change people. To see how I have chosen to be in the world.

It is my energy, I live it daily and so for me it’s just the way things are. But there have been multiple messages from different people sharing with me how I have changed them and others. This has been such a gift. I see these people as my personal angels. Reminding me of who I am, what I do without thought, without effort. My angels who are here to remind me, to inspire me, to push me to be even more. These are my people.

See the people in your life who hold this mirror to you. See how they hold this mirror for you to see your magic, your beauty, your vibrance. These are your angels.

Remind those in your life who shine bright, without effort, how they change you. You can be the angel for them.

If you are reading this, I want to tell you how much you have changed my life, how much beauty you hold within, how your kindness, your generous spirit, your thoughtfulness and care stop me in my tracks, captivate me, and show me what love is.

You are truly magnificent.

You are glorious.

You celebrate me, and I in turn wish to celebrate you. For you show me each and every day how I can be more, how I can rise, how I can be softer with my love, gentler with my delivery.

I want to tell you my beautiful butterfly, I see your magic.

We don’t ever really see the effect we have on others. We don’t know or are aware of how the simplest act, the simplest words we share change the course of someone’s day. For my morning walk and coffee and conversations challenging the world as we see it, these simple little moments I see celebrate what it means to be alive. Habits can change, routines can change, our view of ourselves and others can change. When we self reflect and see that we know nothing, we open, we un-become and our greater force within us opens to all.

Thank you to my angels. I finally see my wings, and I see your wings and want to return the celebration of you in my life.

With so much love, Nicole xxx

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Nicole Forrest is a writer and teacher of consciousness, spirituality, meditation, and metaphysics. She is here to open the hearts of the world through her words and energy. Poetic & lyrical, Nicole makes it easy to understand the complexities of our human existence, and in our greater universe. That unexplainable feeling of knowing, hair standing on the back of your neck, how does the concept of intuition or consciousness fit into our everyday life? How can we harness our infinite power and intelligence? This is Nicole’s playground and she welcomes you with the energy and spirit of the curious child seeing the world through the lens of wonder.

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