i don't know why i keep going but i'm still here.

not like the other podcasts: raw, unfiltered, real.

In today's episode, I wrestle with the twisted paradox of mental health labels and the painful awareness of feeling endlessly misunderstood. I speak to a hollow ache that never seems to soften, the constant push and pull of life, loss, and the strange comfort of loneliness. I can’t shake the feeling of being cursed or forgotten, a story only half-heard. Maybe it’s a lesson, or maybe it’s just another cosmic joke. Listen in as I question where I fit in a world that never seemed meant for me and ask myself whether life is worth the struggle. Topics in today’s episode: mental health identity, the illusion of understanding, the weight of loneliness, the curse or gift of mental illness, coping without true support, love and betrayal by family and friends, the search for meaning, cosmic humor and despair, the painful truth of self-awareness, the hope of transformation, dealing with isolation, the pressure to succeed, escaping society’s expectations, divine intervention and existential doubt, feeling like a burden, the failure to find peace, struggling without medication, life’s painful persistence, surviving as an outsider, questioning life’s purpose